You know Shadix, I often used to feel the same way, that I wasn't engaging enough, or knew enough to really belong with people. I'm a shy reclusive introvert who, like you, just wants to be accepted for who I am, not for some ideal that others want me to become. I am who I am, an awesome creative free spirit who finds beauty in raw emotion, and baring one's soul. I'm emotional, and passionate, and that's okay because it's a part of who I am and I can always channel it into a painting or sketch of some sort.

I am just afraid of the same things you are, and probably have the same thoughts you do too, I just try and not let them hold me back as much as possible. That in and of itself is very difficult.

I also feel I'm more of what my old T describes as a late bloomer, in that it takes me more time to develop and experience things than other people, but I'm okay for being this way. It's not a fault, but a gift rather, because I can hold onto my youth for longer than some can. In fact, I still look rather youthful, more like a teenager than the 33 year old I am today (well, will be tomorrow on the 20th, which is my birthday BTW).

Anyways, I hope you can find what your looking for, and if you want to talk, feel free to drop me a PM sometime.