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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2
I totally hate watching disorder shows....it triggers us bad. I don't want to feel like I was taught to be a certain way....we are way to influential.
I watch these shows and become convinced that I'm not and faking and feeling all special alone ready to die.
I saw a CSI episode that is nothing like me (my symptoms are much more covert) and I feel invalidated.
The same applies for bipolar. I always feel not good enough to be one thing or another.  |
I hear you, AC. When I was first diagnosed with DID I did not believe I 'measured up' to my internal vision of what DID 'looked like'. I didn't think my symptoms were 'enough' or 'valid' or 'real'.
After many years of living in denial though I have a much better understanding of it, I think. This
is DID. This is what it looks like / this is how it presents / this is its reality / this is how it feels. And it
isn't florid and visible and obvious. It is quiet; internal; personal; painful; and intensely lonely.