My BPD also causes me to go through job after job. I also have Major Depressive Disorder, but the job thing is definitely my BPD. I've had 3 hospitalizations sine August, one due to self-injury, BPD blamed again. I'll even be perfectly honest here...if I could be in charge of my smoking, I'd check in and never come out. I am still incapable of running my life and I prefer to check out. With my newest meds on board (PAXIil/Zyprexa), I'm finally starting to feel more positive, but I know I have a long road of recovery ahead of me. After 10 years of battling all my disorders, I have to keep believing that I'm here for a reason...just haven't found the answer yet.