I was most helped by examining the ways my therapists' gained their dominance over me and the illusion they actually possessed some mastery I lacked. The signals and manipulation was subtle (as they are in most human relationships.)

Though the truth was painful and jolting, it was necessary for my self-preservation. I felt like a fool for being so fooled.

I've changed my concept of trust now. I (hope I) no longer completely surrender my judgment to ascribed experts. I gather as much information as possible on my own and refused to be awed because of someone's accreditation or title.