I'm going to be honest, I've been in a similar boat for these past few nights. What's kept me going and not doing anything is that I don't let myself be alone. Granted I am physically but I've been chatting with people. Whether it'd be on here or facebook; I haven't allowed myself to break away from interacting. I don't much talk about what's bothering me during these conversations because the goal is to distract myself. I just talk about TV, music, art, politics (oh, the politics) and a bunch of randoms things. It's helped me out immensely to get through this week since I'm holding off on going into treatment until the Monday after Thanksgiving. You're welcome to talk with me through PM. I'm an insomniac so I'll probably be awake through to tomorrow.