aw jacq... i think you are beating on yourself too much... if they really are your mom/dad figures they will love you no matter, they will see your pain and inside wonder how they could help, worry that maybe their prior help was inadequate, love you unconditionally, see that your pain is not over and love you deeper... thats what a mom and dad would do... they wouldn't think the things you are fearing, that is not love, that's judging and isolating.. they don't sound like that type of people to me...