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Old Nov 20, 2016, 12:36 AM
shamon86 shamon86 is offline
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I don't know why I continue to torture myself. I've gone months without feeling down and then in one night, it's like I've made no progress at all.
I've been taking Trintellix since August and I've been doing well, especially considering the situations I've experienced that would normally send me back to the pit (my grandfather passed, I've had multiple financial problems, and I've tried twice to pass an exam to be a medical coder and failed both times). I got through all that and it didn't knock me down.
And then I made a huge mistake... I stopped taking my medicine. It wasn't intentional, I forgot one day and then one turned into 2 and 3 and then before I knew it, it had been a week. And I was still doing okay, until today and now it's like, boom, I'm right back at the bottom again.
You would think that feeling would persuade me to get back on schedule with my medication, but that's not the case. I hate that I have to take medication on a daily basis to just be okay . Forget being happy, that's not possible.
Some people can just be okay or happy and not even try.
It is my fault that I'm back in this place again, and as crazy as it sounds I don't want to take another pill. That being said, I also know that I can't not take the medicine if I want to be okay. That sucks.
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