Dear Sophiesmom-- You have really encouraged me in so many ways and I am grateful for that. Here is an awkward attempt to encourage you.

I sense that (let me know if I am way off the mark here) you are scared and/or ashamed to talk about what is specifically bothering you. I'm not saying that you have to post it all here. Sometimes it takes a lot of time to find and learn to trust someone with our most painful thoughts (a T, PC friend, etc.). After all, if you weren't ruminating or avoiding a disturbing subconscious thought, you would eventually find staring at the ceiling so boring that you would fall asleep (unless you need to cut back on coffee or another stimulant).

I have not posted all of my "dirty laundrey" on PC, but lately, I have surprised myself concerning how much I have revealed. I sometimes feel like I make a spectacle of myself with the silly things I say, but, for me, it has helped me vent some of my sadness and guilt which, in turn, has helped my mental state. I am not sure if this would help everyone. It seems to help me because I am definitely an extroverted person. Perhaps confessing embarrassing things would not be helpful for you if you are an introverted person. Private messaging can be very helpful when you are concerned about oversharing. Like Só leigheas, you can PM me anytime. I sometimes PM Só leigheas and she has helped me a lot. There are so many of us at PC who really like you and would love to get to know you.

I truly hope you got some sleep last night. Sleep makes a world of difference. Sincerely, Myst