I Would say, vampykisses, that (at 23) you have a big road ahead... Many choices to make... many opportunities to find happiness..
How do you feel about this behavior of your fiance?
Can you talk about it openly?
People, everybody has fetishes...

Also, let me say you shouldn't talk as if you're "stuk" to your fiance, cause you'll end up believing you are when you're not.. You can always change your life...