{{{{{{{{{{{{{Mary Alic}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I know that you don't want to end the relationship but you are talking about ending your life because it is so terrible. This sounds backwards to me. I think you should thinking about ending the relationship because you are thinking about ending your life. I know it is all so hard to deal with but lady you are a special person and you are not getting the love and support you deserve. Please consider contact a women's crisis center or something. We don't want to lose you and he is pushing you closer and closer to your goal.
Take care dear one,
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson