I didn't logically think how many limits there were to what the therapist knew about me. In fact they only saw me in present constrained circumstances. They didn't see me function at work, interact with a peer or manager, know what my rooms looked like. They couldn't know my past better than the description I provided. They sometimes pretended that "causes" were knowable and that knowing them would release me from the past like a steam kettle.

They had no magical transformation wand. They never said changes would be my own rearrangements or that seeing through people's acts,including theirs, would be a big part of change.

Neither they nor I were rational.