Thanks for the info and yes, that would be a sign that it will need to be talked about with her. Journal therapy is a major part of my therapy (my initiation) and I give her about 90% of what I write. So even if I can't talk to her in person about this at first, I could share with her it was happening.

So, far that has not been a problem. Most the time I do look forward to seeing her, it is rare that I don't end up talking about stuff that is relevant to sorting me out, either from the past or just day to day stresses. I have made major strides - I was in a very depressed place when I started seeing her and it took about 6 months to get me on stablish ground (and returning to medication). For about the last 3 months, I have been doing much better at rolling with things and not needing to lean directly on her as much for stability. I think these are some of the reasons I don't want it to turn erotic. Part of me is telling myself, that if it happens, it will just be part of the process and that she and I will deal with it. The other part of me is say, yeah but nothing could ever be done about it, so don't set yourself up for that world of pain and turmoil. Not to mention that I am in a good relationship that has lasted 18 yrs - I don't think that would end the relationship, we are a good match. I do think it might make things a bit weird for awhile.