I am very sad and depressed today. I am thinking about how my kids father called a family meeting to tell our children that I am a selfish person. How he is constantly telling them bad things about me. How now that was the proof that he is doing that. How we both have 4 days off for Thanksgiving and I am anxious and nervous about being around him for that amount of time. How I wish some accident would happen that would knock me off the face of the earth. No one would notice or care anyways. How I was offered a great opportunity at work but had to turn it down because of my life and the lack of people in my life. How it is going to get too cold for my weekend walks and I will be stuck in the house with him. How I messed up the kids activities schedules and we missed one thing and now they are mad at me. I can win...I am trying my best, but nothing is ever good enough.