It's my dads birthday today so I called him and sang happy birthday and we made plans to go out to dinner this week as a family. Hoping I can hold back these depressive thoughts and behaviors and come around. My dad asked me how I was doing and I said I'm doing better which is true but doesn't fully indicate how badly I'm feeling either. I don't feel comfortable complaining and to my father it's 1000 x worse. A family dinner will be nice though and it's good to have a plan and something to work towards. Still feeling low so I probably won't be able to clean today like I planned but hopefully tomorrow. Or maybe later this evening if things improve. My pain has lessened since yesterday so that is good.