Meds got me to sleep 8hours again but the hangover is brutal. Still it passes in a couple of hours. My wipe me out drug combo seems to be working. I am sedated during the day but can function but during the evenings I struggle with agitation and the extra meds knock me out.

I am taking WAY TOO MANY BENZO's. (6mg Clonazepam and ~4mg Lorazepam).

It is only meant to be temporary (Like about 5 days) but I am worried about addiction as I already have one and I trying to get off it but life keeps throwing curveballs at me, making weaning off Benzo's difficult. Then I just don't care anymore so say give me all the drugs and enjoy the day for I might be dead tomorrow.

Still those meds and the Olanzapine have brought me back to reality, for which I am glad in a conflicted way. Thinks I am getting closer to stable. Which means I will be able to go home soon!!!! See my pdoc today and discuss this with him.