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Originally Posted by Só leigheas
Depression has robbed me of a lot of different things. One of them for many years, like you, was music. I'm just now starting to get it back. It's difficult because my depression has never lifted and the desire to play is difficult when I spend so much of my energy just trying to stay alive.
I'm sorry that you've lost this and I advise finding a way back to it. It's very theraputic and it really isn't too late. We're around the same age so it's not too late to pursue the passion of just creating music and drawing. The truth is, sometimes the only way to lift this depression off our shoulders slightly, is to fight against the very thing it's trying to take away from us. Easier said than done, but still possible.
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I'm really sorry you're going through the same thing too. One thing you brought up that's important is that you said you're just trying to stay alive. I agree with you on that 100%. I always say that I'm not really living. I'm surviving, and it gets very tiring trying to survive day in and day out. It drains you of a lot of your energy. I'm sorry you've had to experience this too. You sound like a very strong individual. I wish you all the best in your future music endeavors!
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Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky
Yeah, these is one of depression's symptoms, I think.. you can't enjoy whatever you used to enjoy. It sucks and I'm sorry you're going through it  Hope everything wil get better soon. Maybe changing therapist can be a start.
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Yea, that is a major symptom of depression. It's sad to say that I've gotten used to it since I've been dealing with it over over a decade, but it's still very difficult. I'm definitely going to look into changing therapists but I'm realizing a lot of music therapists in my area don't take insurance and I can't pay out of pocket.
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Originally Posted by LostOnTheTrail
I could have written this post. It's not quite so long term for me, but for the past several months, I have struggled with the idea of picking up a guitar. When I do, for an hour a week...because I'm still having lessons...it's like 'Wait a minute, what do I do with this?'
I hope we both get our music back soon.
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I really commend you for actually picking up your guitar and practicing, though! I think that's amazing. Slow and valuable steps lead to great progress, I think. I should do what you do, and just start off small. Maybe just sit at my piano and play for a little bit. I think my problem is that I'm thinking about it so intensely and I should just dedicate a small bit of my time to playing and seeing where that takes me. I really hope we both get our music back soon, too.