...think it still applies today, though.

I give up. For tonight, anyway. I can't do Materials, I can't do Fluid Mechanics, I can't do Thermodynamics...haven't even tried Maths today, but I really should have because we got told yesterday that we were meant to be spending 4-5 hours finishing each tutorial before the actual session, and I'm already behind. Why am I the only one that's freaking out about work? One of my friends said all my talk of studying is making her feel bad, because she's not doing as much, and most of the people on my course are somehow still managing to go out most nights – I went out last night for the first time in almost a month, which is possibly why today's feeling worse than normal...I've only managed about three hours' work, but that's three hours' work after having about four hours' sleep, doing laundry, food shopping and photocopying my music for orchestra in the library, plus an hour-long violin practice. I'm doing the bare minimum of work that I should be doing to keep on top of everything, and I'm still struggling. Looks like I can't cope with working until 9:30 or 10pm each night, but how else can I fit everything in? And it's still not enough, and it's not helping that I can't understand what the hell I'm supposed to be doing in most of my classes...in Materials and Maths the tutorials hardly seem to bear any relation to the lectures, and we're only ever going to be getting two Materials tutorial sessions. I don't know if I'm brave enough to email the Materials lecturer, since saying “I'm having trouble with questions 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and...” is going to make me look like a complete idiot. At least if I wait until the tutorial session I might be able to ask a few different people.

Apologies if this rant makes no sense...it's nearly 11pm and I'm tired and really should be in bed, since the internet doesn't even work at the moment and I need to go to a 6-hour orchestra rehearsal tomorrow, plus fit in another 3 hours of work... %#@&#!.

Today's update: Seems I can't do maths, either. The work we're doing at the moment is almost exactly the same as Advanced Higher, but it's a different method and I can't remember the one I used at school properly! I'm going to fail this course.