Have you heard of DBT ..Dialectical Behavior Therapy, I am in that currently but not helping me.

I need a medication badly to help, I was in an angry high anxiety state all weekend. I get such high anxiety and it just sticks..with me all day, I pace, I rant about stuff, everything is too much for me to handle. I clench my teeth a lot.

I sound like a monster don't I? I am starting to think I am one. Been trying to get help but still at square 1. Yeah I would rather feel flat then volatile and explosive and so much anxiety that really is a constant state for me.

I forget who I am, who I was, I long for what I could have been and seem to never will be...
I think the real me is dead.

I feel dead.

Karen