Why did I do this to myself? I was watching Sting's Field of Gold video when I just broke down and cried, I had listened to this song before without tearing up, but then again, I didn't know all the lyrics or what the song meant. Anyways, then I clicked on a couple sad Disney moments videos (the scene in The Fox and the Hound where Widow Tweed drives Tod out to the forest to let him go just leaves me bawling every time), and then, on the suggested list of videos was the "saddest animal deaths in movies" and one of the saddest moments for me was when Marley dies in the movie Marley and Me, well, they used that image of Marley laying there dying on that steel surgical table as the thumbnail for the video and just thinking about that scene absolutely breaks my heart, mostly because my own dog was in that same spot, dying from wounds she received from an attack by another dog, and we had to say goodbye to her.

Anyways, now I can't stop crying, and I'm sobbing so hard I'm getting a headache, not to mention my sinuses are killing me. I keep replaying that scene where Marley dies over and over again in my head, and reliving the nightmare that was my own dog's death. I keep spiraling downward into ever darker territory and I need to stop that. But how? Writing this out has helped me calm down a bit, but every time I stop, that scene and the real life tragedy keep playing in my head again. Maybe I should splash some cold water on my face and play my new Pokémon Sun game for a while....