Hi everybody, I hope you're fine
First of all, excuse me if I have any mistakes, I am not a native speaker
Well, I just found this website and signed in, so this is my first post. And what got me here, as I said in the title, I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't even know how to describe it or where to begin. I just feel sad and depressed all the time, but I do have my family and friends who love me, and I'm happy for it and glad that I do, but at the same time, I just wish I was alone, and once I am, I overthink about everything, and it's driving me crazy. I just wish I could go to school and study, but with an invisibility cloak so I won't talk to anyone. It's seriously making my days terrible, since I can't concentrate in class, until my friend "wake me up" , and this year and the following are the most important in our high school years. Beside, I day dream a lot, and I also have suicidal thoughts from times to times. I just don't know what's wrong with me. Should I be concerned or not? Is it normal what I feel? Should I seek for a professional help? I don't want to tell my parents because they'll think I'm crazy or I don't know. Because I used to cut myself 3 or 4years ago, and they knew it, but it was a year after I stopped, and since the day they found out, they became suspicious and careful about whether to announce me some news or not, and I hate it
Anyway, I just want to know what is it. Are they other people? How to stop it? Thank you so much , and excuse my long text