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Originally Posted by Ember_42
My therapist says that I have an ingrained sense of shame from growing up with perfectionist standards. So instead of thinking "that didn't go well" I think "I'm a failure". I don't feel that I deserve good things because I can never live up to the standards that I feel have been set for me. She says that's also probably a good part of my social phobia/agoraphobia.
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I think a lot of this does hinge around my relationship with my mother, although we have a cordial relationship it is guarded. Nothing I have ever done has pleased her, or she hasn't shown it anyway. My dad is different, he makes up for her. But yeah, one of my patents was impossible to please and still is, I was unfavorably compared to other children growing up as was her way to get me to be more like them, the message I took from this was I wasn"t good enough as I was, I wasn't as good as others. I have learned to let it go but it's still ingrained.