exes are exes for a reason. You are worthy of everything you want. Clearly this man didn't think so, but you know deep down inside that's not true. Burn that bridge. He's the one that's a worthless turd. When I broke up with exes, there was always flames. It takes a while to find the right man, but you will find him. Don't settle for just anybody. I used to do that and get hurt in the process. It's totally not worth it.

You should try left handed journaling. Write the issue, ex: i don't feel worthy, with your dominant hand and write a response with your other hand. It makes the other side of your brain work, and I swear I come up with some amazing ideas. It slows down your thinking process too because it takes so long to write. Just try it out and see what you get.