tHANKS! Risperdol and me don't mix. May try Seroquel instead of so much bento's. See what my psychiatrist says when I see him today.

What is amazing is that although I am now sleeping 7 hours straight(ish) every night, I am wired through the day. Much more than I ever was on ritalin and that never made me feel wired anyway. By 1pm I will have taken 4mg of Clonazepam, 2mg of Ativan and 20 mg of Olanzapine (ZYprexa)...and i am still be on edge. I have 6mg of Ativan are should I need it. Plus my night doses of Clonazepam and Olanzapine.

...so in one day I can consume 8mg of Lorazepam (Ativan), 6mg Clonazepam (Klonopin) and 30mg of Olanzapine (Zyprexa) Plus the Ritalin and Lithium which don't sedate me. Should I not be comatose after all that? Instead I am writing, reading a little when I can concentrate and too chilled to go ahead with my SI. A PLUS I KNOW.

My emotions are wild inside, full of rage and intense energy. The meds do calm me an enable me to stay in an unlocked ward but I am stunned at the level of meds I can take. Putting me out is the equvilant to taking out a charging Rhino with meds, not bullets.

I just hope this Rhino comes back to a normal life soon, stable and able to function.