Hey, I do not know how to start but I'll tell my story, please listen and tell me what to do.

I'm 21 years old guy from stressful anxious family, my mom come from house which her dad has abandoned them at age of 6.
When I was a baby, I was
My life seems like quiz to me but impossible to resolve.
My childhood was perfect, I don't remember anything very bad happened to me or I don't remember any sexual abuse.
At 3nd-6nd grade I was very social and the most popular in school, next year when I moved to middle school, I desired to make sexual activity with my friends