Just a quick update. I have had a few people tell me that no I am not alone. Of course one of them had to state it quite firmly (Hey Deep) but it is starting to sink in...slowly. The other day I practiced using the crisis line number. Felt a little dorky explaining that it was a practice call but hey, now I know what to expect right? Deepthinker stressed that I could call her anytime and gave me her number. I am thinking about that. I asked hubby today if it would be all right considering she is an internet friend and all and he said she was my friend and I should decide. Also after I told my story at group today one of the group members gave me his number. Said I could call him when ever I needed too. Don't worry, he is much older then me and happily married. I definitely don't think he is hitting on me. Ha ha. Yes I am always suspicious. I want to thank bptoo for your support through this rough patch. I needed that hug. I am feeling much better now. I just am trying to get up the courage to show my hubby the damage. Sigh. I am just a little afraid is all. Will he be upset with me? I don't think so but I have learned to expect the worse when pointing out that I wasn't feeling well. My parents would get angry at me when I got sick. I learned just to deal with it on my own. It is hard to learn to trust someone to not get mad. Ah well. All I can do is try, right?
Thanks again everyone,
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson