Well, it came to a head today. My mom called me today and guilted me for not seeing her in two weeks and I snapped at her. To the point of making her cry. Not my proudest moment.

Immediately after doing that I felt awful, like remorseful actually. I actually stole the term enmeshed from the forum to describe my momwhile talking with her, so thank you for expanding my vocabulary.

Anyway the long and short of it is, I called her back to apologize. This can't continue, I feel like I'm losing grip on everything. I'm feeling very withdrawn and just want to buy a one way ticket away from everyone and everything...but that won't solve anything.

I think for the first time I will actually seek a therapist for help,advice and honestly just an unbiased opinion. I have never been so stressed in my life, add on the fact that we bought this damn house that has been a nightmare fixer upper from hell.

Thanks all for the wonderful input. Seriously much appreciated.

Best,
Carl