((( pink ))))

I think it is really hard to post, and sometimes even to read, when the depression is hammering away. Like you said about it affecting your ability to engage in therapy; it's just hard to think and to articulate when I feel depressed.
Did you see the new pdoc and get your lithium levels checked?

I love that your T hates your depression because he hates how it makes you feel bad, and it takes you away from him and he misses you then. I love that he said that in such detail and it sounds very caring.

Did he respond the way you wanted him to about holding the penquin?

I'm glad you posted so we know how you are doing.

I hope you feel better soon.