So, I have been out of the hospital 3 weeks now. And I am still struggling so bad just trying to keep myself alive. I'm not sure it is worth it.

Tomorrow is my last chance I guess to get help. This is what I have told myself anyway. But if my last appointment is anything to go by I won't be honest anyway so why bother even turning up for it?



I know that I can't carry on like this. Tomorrow is just going to be a bad day. I can tell. And I don't know if I can change that.

I feel so defeated.