To start this off, I started using pot as a form of recreation, not to escape from my depression because a long time ago when I had friends and I was happy I still smoked pot, mostly as a social thing.

Now for your statement of it causing lung cancer and bad memory, my retentive capacity is as good as it always was, and there are no cases saying that it does cause lung cancer, so please don't say things you haven't even researched on.

Here's what I've tried, I've put up with school, and I still am by doing as much work as I can do, and even extra curricular activities. I even worked this weekend. I worked for 12 hours on Saturday.

I hate myself because I have a ****** relationship with my parents that I can't seem to fix, and I hate myself because I have no close friends. I am such a disappointment to myself and my parents and there's no way I can fix that now, I've already dug myself into a hole too deep and all I can hope for now is some crap job after school with low wages, if I even make it that far.

And on top of all of this people think I look like a crack head because I always have dark circles under my eyes. Even if I go for months without smoking and get lots of sleep, I can't seem to get rid of them.