alright, lets start over...

nice to meet you happles... sorry things aren't so good for you right now... any ideas what has lead to this depression?

sometimes we start sliding slowly and barely notice the downhill slope til one day we look up and realise our friends are missing, our family is fading, our sense of self-worth and self identity has disappeared...

since your retentive capacity is perfect, besides smoking pot and a few recreational drugs, can you think of any other contributors?

the teen mind is a fragile thing... not for everyone, but i've read studies that show these are critical years... the mind is still in development and for some, not all, but some, the introduction of drugs and alcohol creates a gap in the development process... something a pdoc could explain better...

i'm no psych and neither are those who responded to you originally... only caring souls... we are a support community, not a community of specialists...

maybe you can't fix everything that's suddenly slipped by the way as quickly as you'd like... but with time and effort you can regain your self-esteem, re-establish your prior relationship with your parents, find meaningful work...

i apologize for my earlier tone... fuzzy is a dear friend of mine... i hope you understand...