I really don't know what to do. The depression feels pretty severe. I keep having crying episodes. I cannot focus or concentrate on anything. I want to call T, but for what? So I can tell him how depressed I am? He already knows. I seriously don't know how much longer I can take this. I don't have time for this. I have a lot of things to do. But it's such a dead end because it's like-- ok, so I can't take this anymore.... so what? What now? It's not going anywhere.