I remember her telling me that I could accept myself as I am, and still be aware of the need to change. I rejected that pretty fast. I do feel like she is hard on me, but sometimes I think I'm harsher with myself. People have told me I'm too hard on myself, but she says I'm not anywhere near hard enough on myself. She probably means I need to push myself harder to change. I feel judged a lot. I'm not sure if it's really coming from her. She doesn't like my choices and gets mad and frustrated, and I take that as rejection and go into despair and beat myself up with it.