Yeah - a bit more calm now - tho still jumping at sounds. My mind is going a mile a minute. No dreams around it, thankfully. I think i was most surprised by my body's drop to the ground before my mind gave the decision. It made me think about when I was taught to shoot - I spent half a day in class and then we went to the firing range. As soon as people started firing at the targets, I found myself bawling! I didn't even know guns upset me. My dad was humiliated (bless him, the *$*%& that he is) and I had to be taken aside and calmed down by the instructor. When i did finally get a grip (and some ear plugs inside the ear guards) I did fine and "proved" myself. It's just one of those missing puzzle pieces where I find myself wondering what that hole would look like if I knew what was there... make any sense at all?!

((((((((((((hugs to all that have had gun stuff happen to them))))))!!
Kiya