Wow, sometimes I wonder what the hell happened. How did I arrive here? So freaking anxious constantly. Without much help, without any help actually. I just got back from psychiatrist visit....she seems to give a damn, but I know it's just her darn job. I tend to isolate a lot.....my thought is that that is a reason for this black feeling. I have never really believed in the "Devil" but of late it seems more possible, more real. What about you? Do you isolate also? What is the effect? I think another result of the isolation is my paranoia. I don't really know if this is an official diagnosis of "paranoia" but it's a sense that I have to DEFEAT others to make it. That is, every day I wake up facing "the enemy." Al those who have ill will against me. I don't think this is ACTUALLY true, but it sure is a strong sensation. Maybe this is a reach-out.....I;m seeking others who may feel they are alone on the planet Neptune. Without help. Without understanding.....