I get downloaded thoughts of this nature. I guess they must be my thoughts but they seem to come from or have been implanted by an outside source and they send me messages to kill myself, that I'm worthless and everyone would be better off without me. It's all delusional and distorted thinking. For me it's depressive or mixed thinking. I don't hear actual voices but people have tried to make me think I do by saying things and then denying saying them. People can be so sick!