Dear Melmo, I'm so sorry to hear of your highly stressful existence and the kids are probably under stress, too. One way I keep down stress is to get free personal help from some organization. I don't know if there is anything such as that where you live. Medicaid used to provide me with a Senior Companion, but then they stopped paying for that program. Rushing is very bad for us who have bipolar, and I sure do know that in many cases it cannot be avoided. Do you have time to see a support organization and or a family therapist to find out if there are services to help you out? Like maybe taking the kids to school in stead of you? Helping clean house?