I've lost my dignity, integrity and self respect.
Most feelings are numb or closed off. I have no healthy female supports, and don't know much about "relating" to other females (or men) in a healthy way.
I have been in therapy and didn't do well. Presently, under psych. dr. care,
referred by my GP. A couple of years ago I couldn't leave the house. Today, I can drive and able to go do grocery and chores. (this is a huge gift) driving is enjoyable to me.
I don't recognize the person in the mirror anymore, seems living like a social hermit isn't helpful quality of life at this point.
No one to talk to, but I have 3 dogs who are my true friends. I have tried out a meetup with dogwalkers, awkward, but we went. success. Man, there is something frozen inside wish I could thaw out, move on, and be human.