Let me tell you alllll about my journey this past month. I left my job in late September from a big corporation to a small community-based organization to be a teacher. I have been working towards earning my Master's degree at the same time, so when the opportunity came, I acted quickly.

At the time I was ecstatic, excited, optimistic for this new change in my life. It's been my dream job for about 5 years. A few weeks ago, I turned 27 and I voted in a historical election. It has been a heavy month for me on my psyche, thinking about my students (who are mostly new immigrants and refugees), and the future of my family - my sister, brother-in-law, two nieces, ma and pa.

I've also been planning for my friend's (very expensive) wedding in Maryland on NYE. As Maid of Honor, it hasn't been a happy process.

I make less as a teacher than I did at my old job. I've been careful with spending, driving less to save gas and opting to stay home than socialize (in any manner). I deactivated my FB, Tinder and OK cupid because it just p****** me off. I've been trying to sleep on time and doing my best to stay healthy because I won't have insurance until mid-January.

In other words, I've been feeling.. EH.. MEH lately. I don't think it is depression again although I've cried a few times. I don't know where my discontent and unhappiness is coming from but I just don't feel like talking to friends, seeing friends or dating at all. I'm 27 and I still live with my sister. I don't have a boyfriend nor am I married. No one wants to date someone who doesn't live independently. I'm still in school, broke, living with family and kind of feeling regretful for my choices in life. Most Americans embrace individuality. Whereas it is uncommon in Europe, Latin & South America, Asia and Africa have shared households and communal living. I feel like I'm not cool enough because I live in the suburbs.

I haven't felt this way in over 1 year and that is remarkable for me since I've dealt with depression all my life. Am I making sense? Am I dumb for feeling this way about my life choices?