i am new to this site am 29 years old and i been leaving with this for 4 years i cant stand this any more i tired everything i tried every med there is not works right khow they have me on paxil and xanax and it does not work what pisses me off is got no life no more i cant take my son who is 3 years old any where because i cant be around alot of people i have tokhow where the hospitals are if i eveing try to go any where iam so tried off this %#@&#! i wish i had my life back this what happend to me i was in 3 big car crashes i lost my sister who was only 27 years old who left 2 girls i have a panic attack everyday i been to the emergcy room i have stop cout ihave to sleep in the parking lot of emergy room to feel little save and to get some sleep and to top it of i been on medical live from work for about 3 months and it pisses me off because they think iam making this %#@&#! up %#@&#! this they think i want to be drug up with meds and sleep all day bull %#@&#! sorry iam saying bad words i just iam so mad because my own wife tells me %#@&#! every day that iam just lazy that suck that iam not worth %#@&#! but before i got sick i was working i bought her a house and a brabd new suv but khow that worth %#@&#! if not for my little boy i would get a divorce but i love him so much that is the only thing in my life that i love with all my heart i will take her comments because i tell her if she ever got sick i would be there for her because i do love her but thats life for me the only people that are helping me is my family especialy my mom who i love so much and my little boy who hugs me every time he sees me crying but life goes on it would be a lie if i told you i never thought of death rest in peace i love and i miss you so much my sister.axl1