Well just had dinner and couldn't find him. Actually forgot to mention it to my T, unintentionally. Really do understand the minefield that would be starting a relationship while IP but maybe, if I can track him down for his number we could just be good friends and see if something more developed once we are both out for a while and continuously stable.

Trying to be rational but my heart says, 'dive in'. Oh well, I bet he doesn't have any feelings for me anyway so it is a pointless thing to wonder over.