Dear dwr3
I'm sorry about your grandmother passing. People can always assume whatever they want, but a truly wise person knows that outer appearances aren't what they seem.
People have different ways of handling grief. I prefer to remember the person with my memories of them. I think the process of 'saying goodbye' to someone after they pass over is different for each of us. I can say goodbye from wherever I choose because they are no longer in that body. I believe they can hear our goodbyes through our spirit.
I give you much respect for doing this difficult job. I have quit easier tasks. Making friends is very difficult for me on jobs. I always see people group up. I'm always the solo one. To be honest, I prefer that at this point. I usually am not interested in people who talk nonstop about any and everything. I despise gossip, and I kinda enjoy being able to do what I need without having to consult another.
So maybe you can look at the perks of hanging alone for awhile. I can see myself in your description of yourself. I guess I'd say if you really want a work buddy, force some smiles when you make eye contact and say hello to people. That lets them know you are friendly. Take a little step each day toward socializing. 'Hello how are you?' Or similar greeting can start a conversation. If we wait for others to take the first step, it may be ages.
Best of luck on your work. Keep me posted!