That's really interesting. My experience is nothing like this one, mine is due to a physical assault. But there a couple things that hit home a little bit.

I just remember I had this thought when I looked into his eyes- "I'm going to die". It was an irrational thought, but the situation was so irrational that it felt real. It's always that moment, and the moment I looked in his eyes, that stay with me.

I always get a slight feeling of fear and dread whenever I hear him walking around the house or if he's wearing the same clothes or something. But maybe it's not so bad right now because I'm exposed to it all the time. If I left home, I imagine I would probably try not to contact my dad, even though we supposedly have a better relationship now.