Thank you all. I went to my husband with my concerns. I told him what my best friend said. I told him I am terrified of letting him know I am depressed for fear he will leave and that I also am afraid to go to him important issues. He told me he has no intentions of leaving again regardless of the situation and that he is always willing to talk about any concerns, large or small. He also claims he understands how severe my illness can be and that he will never again go against my doctor's wishes. His claim is that he doesn't want to treat me like a child by dishing out my meds/having me committed but I disagree with his argument and think that even if he believes this it isn't true. I think he simply drops the ball. Time will tell on this but if he neglects withholding my meds when it is his responsibility than he will have much on his shoulders if something happens. I hope he never has this on his shoulders. I have decided that since I had no reservations with any of this until my friend came to me that it will be safe to trust my instincts. I am holding to the facts that 35 minutes isn't impossible for anyone to drive and that we won't be moving prior to this summer.

My best friend wants to go to my next appt but I have decided this is likely too intrusive on my relationship with my husband, especially since when asked he agreed to go to this same appt. I am not going to take her.