Very well put. I'm glad you are able to see how valuable you are.
I have often felt defective, but I am not yet to the point where I see the beauty in it. All I see are the flaws that have made me unlovable to others. I have no friends because I don't have the consistent energy to keep them. I have a boyfriend but I keep ruining our relationship and he understandably doesn't seem to want a future with me. It's hard to see the good in that.