At my therapist appointment last week the therapist asked me how I deal with my emotions and issues. I told her all the things I do, including writing on a psych support forum. She said "that's a great idea and it's better than running around in public talking about all these things". As per usual, I left the appointment feeling very good but then something always starts nagging me about the things other people say. Was she implying I'm not healthy enough to be amongst the average people? That who I am and what I choose to talk about are just unacceptable for "normal folk". My husband said she likely meant nothing by it. It was a benign statement but was it really? It has some implications and I've decided to tell my therapist it made me uncomfortable. I'm trying to get out there in the world and feel comfortable doing so. Now I feel I'm only good enough to hide behind a screen.

I'm not everyone's cup of tea. I'm opinionated, I don't respect people who assign themselves as an authority over others, I speak my mind and have unpopular opinions. People HATE me sometimes....which is usually okay because once I get to know them I rarely like them either. This is life....we like some people and dislike others. What I respect in a person other people find vile. And vice versus. But at least m honest about who I am. I don't hide my true self for fear that some may not like me. I used to and that experiment failed. But now I'm told not to talk about my real self in public. And most people agree with this so we all pretend to be something we are not and when we get into our homes the mask comes off, we chuck our shackles and bras and breathe for the first time since leaving the house. And this appears to be normal, and I don't understand and might never be able to.