I have had the long standing fear that I'm just a boring annoyance to my friend and that they only sit through conversations with me and don't actually care and would ditch me as soon as they could. I know this sounds bad but I often get jealous when I see them happy with other people due to these fears. I feel like it would be manipulative to ask if this was true cause it would force them to say they do care about me.
How do I overcome these fears and better my self esteem.