I saw *him*!!!

Abusive ex from when I was 17... pretty much every type of abuse imaginable, he did. Only escaped because he got bored. He then stalked me for years after. I had started to think that he had moved, or at least was on another side of town (I live in a large city)...

He is a manager at a restuarant maybe 2 miles from my home! I went thru the drive thru, and there was an issue... he came to the window to help... he didn't seem to acknowledge that we knew each other at all. I managed to stay calm til after I pulled away... omfg! I am freaking out!

I want to run! I need to run! I can't do this... I am newly sober, and every cell in my body is screaming at me to use, or self injure, or something... I am terrified... none of my irl friends are available... I don't know what to do... my 12 step club doesn't open for another hour... I am freaking out...