Thank you so much for that...I'm so sorry to hear about everything you went through with your husband. But you're right, having a strong support system is key and I am very lucky to have good family members and friends that have stood by me all these years. I'm trying to go about this in the safest, and most educated way possible to avoid any complications, and I do know that there's a good chance I'll pass along the same issues to my child...so sometimes that makes me feel a bit selfish. I wouldn't want my child to experience the things I have. But at the same time, I don't think I'm a bad person. For any of it and I'm happy with myself now and I don't want that to hold me back from being a mother. Its scary to think that I could go off the rails like that in the beginning but I want so badly to be a parent. Hearing your story and knowing what a positive impact your son made on your life...that's very helpful. Thank you again for sharing. I really appreciate it.