I work in Healthcare. My rotations are 7am-3pm or 3pm-11pm. Occasionally I take doubles, usually 3pm-7am... crazy? Well I used to do them all the time
I enjoyed being paid 4k or more a month.

I haven't done them regularly for months, as my dr suggests against them and they seem to make my cycles worse (surprise surprise) and all around ****** from hell comes out. I don't enjoy ***** from hell. I really don't. I get impulsive and down right angry full of rage.

But my partner is trying to encourage me to work two do one to two doubles a pay period. I miss the money... I do. But .... I'm terrified of myself.

Most people are scared of spiders, but
I'm scared of myself. Especially when I don't have any PRNS and can't control my tornado of modds etc.

I've tried explaining this to my spouse but we're still trying to catch up on bills from when I was unwell.

Thoughts?