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Originally Posted by Mysterious153
 ElsaMars,
You are one of the most interesting and creative people on PC. This post paints your feelings so eloquently. Once you said in a post that you thought you were a bit "off", I said to myself, "that describes exactly how I feel among all sorts of people (neighbors, in-laws, etc.) ever since my attempt. When my T says things, I am always reading between the lines. For instance, she always says, "are you taking your medications" then "don't stop taking your medications." I always think to myself that she must think I am really "off" if she is so concerned about me not stopping my meds. Anyways, thanks for expressing a lot of the things that many of us feel in such a beautiful way. You make PC a better place!  |
This is very touching and made me tear up! Yes, when they get really on me about taking my medication I worry I've been honest with them and they are using unnecessarily sometimes too. I lived decades while kinda actively delusional on and off. I did very well on paper. Inside I was undeniably a mess and hanging on by a thread but I know those moments and I know to ask for help when I have the symptoms. Why don't they just trust me more? Or should they? Should I be trusting myself less? Maybe, maybe not. I'm conceding to their opinions currently but could change course. I've committed to 100% med compliance and stand at about 75% of the goal. It's an improvement.